Hello, o ya, I haven't had the time to post anything yet, been really really busy these days, Monday to Thursday I went to school, Friday, woke up late and had fever so I didn't went to school. Just just now, my brother broke the glass door AGAIN! It's like we broke the glass door soo many times, see, we were fighting, so, he had a broom in his hand, I had to protect myself, so I closed the door, he smacked the door, he hit the wood many times, then, he hit the glass, and it cracked, and oh, how I love the looks of cracks, it looks like a piece of art, kinda cool, haha. Well, it was my fault as well, but he started it first liao.

I shouldn't have been in 4N this year, really. I should be with my Sec3 friends, now: 4E5. I miss the times we had together, although I am quiet in class. Well, it's my fault, I played too much. I feel like killing myself, you know, put a knife on my chest and stab it! I'd rather die. Seriously, why would I wanna live in this world?? Should I die only when it's the end of the world?? Nehh! I would rather die now, lets see, drive a car, drive fast, CRASH! Yea!! That's what I feel like doing now.

Today was the worst day I went through hell
I wish I could remove it from my mind
It started out well, but then.. Nehh, not gonna tell you. I thought that everything was gonna be just fine. But I'll Get Over It. I knew it from the start this wouldn't go on well, see, she never talks to me that much, only Von does, but she's too far!! In England!! But I gotta keep to my promise.. Thats all folks, I'm too sad

First of all, Happy Valentine's Day to all!! Hahah, well, I didn't get to go out with her cause she went to her aunt's house, it was her grandmother's birthday. Happy Birthday Granny! So I spent my day mostly at home, had tuition at home, I should reward myself as I can do algebra questions on my own. YAY!! Haha. Ok.. The past few days have been fun! Really. O ya, thanks for the Valentine's gift u gave me. Anw, IMY alott ): As usual, my cousin came to give my brother tuition, and his elder brother came as well, had a lot of fun and laughter. Well, they are in my aunty's car now, heading back home.. Well, I'll end here..

I don't want things to mess up too, but it has always been because of you. Like just now, I didn't hear a word from you, until just now, when I was having tuition, u texted.. I know you're not a beggar. I'll forgive you AGAIN.. I believe you AGAIN. You think I want all these to happen? THINK. Yea, we gotta talk, make sure you do, don't be like just now or yesterday. And I've not yet given up,, like you said,, start anew.. Let's see about tomorrow..

Guess what?? SHE CALLED!!

Well, the past few days, I can say it's FUN! However, ate outside.. So, I've grown kinda fatter.. Bought a lot of stuff, but I like my DAKINE CAMPUS LG backpack, it's kinda cool. Let me get to the point, Friday,, everything was fine, we went to Kopitiam and had some desert, I sent her back, I felt like holding her hands cause my hands were empty as I went back home after school, didn't go for prayers though (shhh). Saturday, kinda fading, but I kept myself going. Sunday, nothing, Today, also nothing, it's like she's not there, I don't know if I did anything wrong, I seriously don't know. What should I do, and Valentine's Day's coming, I'm scared she'll you know,, like whatever Hermann said about he and his L****N. Just read her blog..